Most of my life I appeared to have everything together. A great career, beautiful clothes, travels abroad and a man by my side. However, appearances were deceiving. On the inside, I was a festering sore. Experiences left me filled with anger and bitterness forcing me to pretend to be someone I wasn’t. It began at the age of seventeen, being kick started by the murder of my father, which changed the course of my life.

Now forty years later, in hindsight, I realize most of my life has been guided by the fear of exposure as well as the ever-present fear of death. In reality, I had fallen prey to  thoughts and worries, all of which molded my mind into believing such lies.

The stories I will share have happened to me. I’m hoping as you read about my life it will cause you to reflect on your own. The old saying “hindsight is 20/20” certainly is true. A rear view mirror can allow one to see with clarity if you don’t fall into the trap of guilt and shame. I had to learn that lesson as well.

The question is can you learn from your mistakes and not continue to wallow in the same ones? I finally found joy when I learned to like me just the way I was designed. Besides, pretending wore me out. Are you tired? Do you feel you need to wear a disguise to masquerade the truth? Do anxious thoughts consume you all the time making you feel less than adequate?

If that’s you, I invite you to journey down the road that led me from a dark world into the light when I removed the veil of deception from my eyes.